There was a time when I thought life was simple. I thought that when I grew up, things and people would be so perfectly placed that I would never have to worry about falling in love, starting a family with the right person, or trying to find the best career choice. I know now that my childhood beliefs were just as innocent and untouched by the corruption of the world as I am. I look back on my childhood and remember memories good and bad and I am grateful for the wisdom I have gained. I would not be the person I am today without life's many lessons. As a teenager, I developed trust issues and experienced anxiety. I start to fidget nervously and sweat. I didn't do well in public because people made me feel uncomfortable and unapproachable. It got so bad that I developed a fear of driving, constantly analyzing everything and inventing irrational scenarios. I still face some of these issues, but I owe a lot to those who understand and want to help me with my own motivation. I saw how harmony was something people dreamed of. You learn very quickly in stressful situations and you really have your back. Losing friends and yet gaining some of the best friends I still have today. I had a very shocking life moment just when I thought I had started to get everything on track. After finding out I was pregnant and having no support from my father, it changed me. I was so angry at myself for the mistakes I had made and angry at all men for a while because all the guy had to do was just support my decision and he couldn't even not to muster up the courage to say that it could even be his. child. I figured if he would do that, how many others would do it. I was angry at this guy for a long time but then I came back middle of paper......you can change your inner self and maybe not. We just have to figure out how to deal with it and continue to live life to the fullest. I feel so prepared to face the bumps in the road, even though I may not know what they are yet. It's amazing how much one small thing can affect an entire life. Payton completely changed my life and my outlook on life. I don't get angry at people as easily as I used to, it's not worth it if they are truly good friends. I have never been more motivated to do the things I want and need to do now. I have learned not to dwell on the past or mistakes because they will only drag you down further and we all make mistakes. I have learned to cherish people who care about me. While this is just one knowledge I'll learn over the course of my life, I'm actually pretty excited about the others, even if they're not always the way you'd like them to be..