I had two boyfriends in high school and was sort of pushed into both relationships by my friends. Although I liked both individuals, I was strongly considering dating neither of them. At first I liked a guy and my friends told us we should date because I never had a boyfriend. I agreed because I realized it might seem weird that I was 15 and had never had a boyfriend before. He was very kind and intelligent, but very "two-faced", and ended up cheating on me and being quite emotionally abusive. The second guy was very intelligent and had an interesting sense of humor, but he also ended up being incredibly emotionally abusive. Both were bad ideas on my part and very psychologically scary, especially since in both relationships I was struggling with my eating disorders, depression, and anxiety. When I got to college, I met Sam, my current boyfriend, and we planned to get married after we graduated. Sam had to help me deal with many harmful thought processes that developed from these relationships, even though I had overcome many of them before coming home.