He has no moral conscience to influence his choices in determining who he affects. I often wonder who I could have been, or would have been, if I hadn't lost the one person I would never have been for. My life, until recently, was best summed up in the words of Eleanor Roosevelt who once eloquently said: "It takes courage to love, but the pain caused by love is the cleansing fire known to those who love generously. We all know people who are so afraid of pain that they close themselves like clams in a shell and, giving nothing, receive nothing and so retreat until life is just life..